Creative Powers

This road leading to the garden where the fruit trees reside has been one of winding roads, uphill climbs with downhill coasts while the briars encroach creating wounds that penetrate yet heal.  Only on the journey with the Vine Dresser can I experience wounds that provide deep healing to the core of my being.  The garden is the space that breeds life from death.  The garden cultivates this longing for more within the paradox of complete satisfaction overwhelmed by gratitude and perfect peace.

Every branch, every root and every scene in the garden shouts creative work.  Creative.  From the moment of “let their be light” to the spoken growth of “let the earth sprout vegetation.” The evidence of our Creator is lively, flamboyant, vibrant and soothing.  Creativity is defined as the use of the imagination or original ideas, especially in the production of an artistic work.  When you look all around you, original ideas and artistic works are everywhere.  When we stop looking at the world around us as a blank canvas to create in, we stop seeing the world for all of its potential and beauty.  Everything about the core of God the Father is creative – from the zebra to the giraffe, to the Blue Wonder Toad Lily to the Lithop plant of South Africa.  His nature is to create – and as a Creator, He cannot stop creating, ever. 

When we review the passage in Genesis 1:26, we see that God declared that He was going to “make man in His own image – in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them.”  And this very decision passed His creative abilities and nature to His creation.  He gave us the ability to create.  The ability to dream.  The ability to use our hands, our brains and our abilities to craft once in a lifetime splendors.  The ever-changing 7 wonders of the world reflect this growth in mindfulness in creative works of man.  To the Grand Canyon, not created by man, to the Internet, the wonders never cease to amaze.

It is overwhelming to think of all of the creatives in the world – authors, musicians, artists, photographers, craftsman, chefs, actors, seamstress, potters, engineers, architects, scientists, baristas, gardeners, farmers, entrepreneurs, florists and the list goes on and on and on.  In almost every genre of work, there is a portion of creativity required.  My personality type lives and thrives in the place of the unknown – in the element of faith and unpredictability.

My own arrangement of Mother’s Day flowers! With the help of G!

For the longest time, 34 years to be exact, I have viewed food as a controlled, must-have, element to life.  Preparing meals for my family and myself was a forced activity pushed upon me every day, multiple times a day, like clockwork – literally.  This was completely predictable.  Every day, my kiddos and husband were going to need dinner.  Predictable, a forced necessity.  Every Thanksgiving, I would look at the experienced women in my life and watch them make turkeys and I would think, “oh dear, someday I am going to be the grandmother and I am expected to do that!”  Panic would follow.  Until recently.  As many of you know, 2020 has been the year of the Quarantine.  The year of the virus.  The year that everything changed.  The year of the forced Sabbatical.  The year that created a sense of pause in society and hectic schedules.  The year that developed refreshment through stillness and rejuvenation through new eyes and new angles.   And so I felt compelled to buy a cookbook.  Not just any cookbook, as I walked through Target, alone armed with mask and hand sanitizer, Joanna Gaines called me into her world and said I could join!  Well done, Target, another unexpected and unplanned aisle purchase – good placement.  This is not a budget or stewardship message. As I begin to read – yes, I read the opening pages, I felt her speaking to me.  And not just her, but the Creator – the Life Bringer.  I heard her words, “a sweet reward of cooking is not only in what’s created, but also in the simple act of getting to create.”  And then it hit me – cooking is only partly about our body being designed for calorie intake, the entire other part is embracing the God-like ability to create in yet another way. 

My own charcuterie board I made for Mother’s Day!

The past two weeks have been filled with the desire to learn from the best, right now every recipe of Joanna Gaines.  And yet in following her instructions, I am becoming a creator in my own kitchen.  We are given the “simple act of getting to create” all day every day in every way.  We set the course of who we want to be and influence who we want to see around us.  We make decisions and choices that drive a Creative Work in our lives.  We enjoy the creative abilities of so many around us – through entertainment and even just design.  Think of your coffee pot that allows you to drink coffee grown in Guatemala.  How many steps of creativity is that!?!  And even still, as we celebrate Mother’s Day, we see the creative ability of God Almighty crafting little humans that look and act just like the ones who carried them or the seeds that sewn them.  Amazing creativity.

In this moment, we must look at the journey to the garden and through the garden with the eyes that shouts, “I am your Creator and I made you just like me!”  Live and create today.  Create life in words.  Create joy in peace.  Create gratitude in difficulty.  Create life in death and calmness in chaos.  Choose to create and enjoy every wild flower along the way.

Seasons

The new leaves of spring – new beauty.

The seasons in our lives are ever changing. We have our basic weather seasons: winter, spring, summer & fall. We have our sport seasons: baseball, football & basketball. We have seasons of change, seasons of joy, seasons of sadness. One thing is sure, with all of these seasons – they are always changing.

My dad once told me that life moves at whatever speed your age is. For example, if you are 10 years old – life moves at 10 miles per hour. If you are 30 years old, thirty miles per hour and 60 years old, 60 miles per hour. Boy, is that true. And not just is the speed of life that fast, but the experience and the change of each season moves that fast too.

One of the saddest parts about life is that you do not realize how great each season is, until it is gone. The fondest memories come after the moment is over. I think back to my awkward middle school and high school days and remember so much of it with the greatest joy and admiration. These days were full of whose house was I going to and who was coming over to mine. The fun of “holy rollers” striking with our toilet paper in the yards, summer youth camps on top of Lookout Mountain, dramas that were the very definition of me called “Late Nite” and squeezing life out of every single second. I think about how those choices and those seasons made up the core of who I am. The time I spent during my college years serving as a youth group leader in hopes of giving back to the next generation the same amazing experiences I once had. And those seasons changed.

Friendships forged in fire that I never dreamed wouldn’t be there, dissolved. Not that I couldn’t call at any moment for anything – but they are not the same as they once were. And then new seasons began – new jobs, the season of marriage and children, more new jobs, a new home, aging parents, kids growing way too fast, more friendship changes and more life moments of exhaustion and joy. Ministry moments of overwhelming purpose and moments of more questions than answers. Divine direction as clear as Christmas, and then yet, more season changes.

Through every season change, there is a choice. There is a mourning or a celebration. The choice lies with this question: how will I respond to my current season? Will I look at each moment and each relationship with gratitude and embrace the joy and the pain? Will I take time to pause in the moment and be still? Will I rush through it pushing to the next one? Will I look for the wisdom to be gleaned and the joy to be found? Will I follow the Divine direction in each moment of the season or just blaze my own path of destruction and defeat? Will I remember the passage “all things work for the good of those who love Him (God)”? In the many days where I want to choose to hide under the covers and pretend the day is not going to happen, what will my choice be?

Can there be both mourning and celebration in sync with one another? Can we mourn the moments of days past and celebrate the moments to come – all while mourning and celebrating our present? Is it easier to find ourselves secretly mourning and publicly celebrating? The changing of seasons produces so much – from fall to winter we see dead leaves, darkness, coldness. These dead leaves are a necessity to bring forth the life of trees and plants to arrive during the transition from winter to spring. And, of course, the fruit to be bore – the moments of rest on the land and in the garden. Every season building upon the last. Every season bringing a new set of beauty – but the dead must fall off first. If we try to hold the dead leaves on the tree, we will never experience the beauty of the next season. And there will definitely be beauty – and it will be there whether we acknowledge it or not.

Today, look at your existing season. Count the joys and acknowledge the struggles. Find the wisdom and the truth. Make moments to pause and take in the scenery, because one thing is for sure – it is definitely going to change and you may not ever know when or how.

Brand new buds on the trees. New growth over the top of dead leaves.

The last five.

The last five years, the last five months, I have experienced life anew.  When I close my eyes and look back to exactly five years ago, everything looks different.  We have a six month old little girl about to experience her second cleft repair surgery.  We are learning how to be parents and parents to a baby that looks different, eats different and may not talk and hear like others.  We are enjoying the life of a comfortable, normal family who works normal hours in normal locations.  We walk in a small community that loves and knows and encourages everyone along.  We have a family that all looks alike and appears to be much like everyone else.

“Although He was a Son, He learned obedience from the things which He suffered.”  Hebrews 5:8

I never knew or dreamed of what the next five years would hold for my journey.  Many of the normal things, taken for granted, disappeared.  The areas of consistency and comfort went away.  And while looking back to yesterday produces amazing thankfulness and perspective, I wouldn’t change an ounce of any of the days that the future would hold.

“Take care, brethren, that there not be any one of you an evil, unbelieving heart that falls away from the living God.”  Hebrews 3:12

Only God knew the amount of faith the journey ahead would hold.  And only He knows the amount of faith each next step will take as He asks them of me.

When I take an inventory of what I see today, here is what it looks like:

  • A relationship with God Almighty that moves off of the page of the Book and into my feet, my heart, my hands, my eyes; and then, I pray, into the eyes of those around me for a momentary encounter with the One who created and still creates.
  • A man, I call husband, who is gentle and loving.  Patient and full of faith.  A servant’s heart.  Who gives so much of himself to those around him for the joy of the journey.
  • A daughter, who approaches six years old very quickly.  Who displays love in ways I’ve prayed for.  She is comfortable with uncomfortable and sees the simplicity of each situation through the eyes of the wisdom The Father has given.
  • A son, who The Father knew intimately in the womb of his birth mother and chose me to be called his mother.  As he runs as fast as he can to age three, he is a passionate, adventurous, loving little guy who calls me “his lady”.  And sometimes his “poopy lady”.
  • A mission for those in the most unfortunate places in my city who are looking for hope.  This creates a purpose for me – a purpose for the Kingdom and a purpose that fulfills.  Walking in purpose brings life to weary bones.
  • A family that has experienced pain, struggle, unknown, forced to walk in faith and be constantly looking to the Book for our own encouragement and direction.  

“But David strengthened himself in the Lord his God.” 1 Samuel 30:6

  • A faith group that looks to the Word and the Spirit for direction and motion.  A faith group that is learning what the Promises of God are and how to STAND on every single one.  A faith group not built on one man, but only upon the one true God.
  • A job that I could only dream of, originating from a moment I affectionately call “The Great Ambush.”  While it ambushed me, it was not unknown.  A job that allows me to create a place for the greatest generation to be valued, admired, respected, honored and revered.  A job that values the associates with the love and excitement that most workplaces have lost.
  • Two children just as comfortable on Magnolia at the motels as Ruth’s Chris Steakhouse.  And passports stamped and ready to face the world – from SE Asia & beyond.  Who pray for a little sister that the Lord wants us to have.  Only He knows from where?!

In studying the numbers in scripture, you find that five is the number for grace.  Grace is God’s Redemption at Christ’s Expense.  I pray I have walked the last five years, the last five months, as a reflection of GRACE.  Do I know everything?  Absolutely not.  And never will.  Do I do everything right?  Absolutely not.  And won’t.  Do I stand beside the decisions made over the last five years, five months?  Absolutely.  And wouldn’t change a one.  Does life always make sense?  Never.  Do I wish for a world that loved more than it hated?  Definitely.  Do I hope that I reflect the love of God in the life I live?  With absolute certainty.  Do I wish that we could love through all things?  Yes.  

We live in a world where everyone believes that everyone must agree in order to have fellowship – fellowship at home, fellowship at work, fellowship at church.  Our love is not based upon what we can all agree upon.  Our love suffers long.  Love does not parade itself.  Love does not seek its own.  Love is not provoked.  Love rejoices in the truth.  Love bears all things.  Love endures.  If we have not love, we have nothing.  (1 Corinthians 13)

The last five years, last five months, the Lord has removed the idols from my life – “dumb idols” as Paul calls them in 1 Corinthians 12.  And I pray that my house and my family will always lead in love and follow every word in the love letter that He has written for me and is currently writing in me.

When the majority are wrong.

It is far from a coincidence that earlier this year I would study the book of Numbers. In that class it looks at the spies going into the Promised Land and the entire congregation of Israel saying no to God.  It is far from coincidence that the church of today has been given a charge to stand in faith and trust in the more than trustworthy God.  It is far from coincidence that the Lord spoke for me to sing a song about God’s promises for this season of my life and many others.
My great prayer for my church is an echo of the questions Kay Arthur leaves us with in our study of Numbers 12-14.
Here are those questions:
1- Remember it was two to ten and the ten were wrong…. am I quick to join the majority?
2- Remember the congregation was ready to stone Moses… am I quick to condemn a leader with whom others are suddenly uncomfortable with because of fear?
3- Remember the congregation chose to believe the report of 10 spies instead of the promises of God… am I quick to hear something and grumble about it instead of trust God?
4- Remember, the children of Israel 20 years and younger were left wandering in the wilderness for 40 years…. am I allowing my children to suffer because of my disobedience and fear?
5- Am I a person that keeps calm in the face of adversity because I trust God at His Word?
6- Am I like Moses that cares more for the glory of the Father than my own?
7- Am I quick to groan in a difficult circumstance?

Stop, just stop.

Christian stop acting like the Holy Spirit of the Living God doesn’t dwell in you.

Stop dividing. Stop slandering. Stop gossiping. Stop acting like fools. Stop being the hand servants of Satan. Stop. Just stop. Literally, stop fighting over things that don’t matter when our kids are killing themselves and our seniors are beyond lonely and depressed. Stop being ridiculous when the world around us is addicted to every form of god and our babies are living in government homes wishing to feel love.

Christ is victorious for us to live free, unified, full of peace and joy. Not victims of depression, division, confusion and hurt. Our purpose is one of fighting for unity and fighting for each other to win the world for Christ!

Our enemy longs for destruction. Are the actions we have today a reflection of the risen Saviour, or are your actions the very ones that hung Him on the cross?

Remember every person has feelings. People are real people.

Choose life. Choose joy. Choose hope.

How far are we willing to go – to love?

We are called to love.  Love God and love people, according to the Good Book.  In my family, we have a funny joke that we say to one another – Love God, hate people.  Not that we really hate people, but sometimes it is extremely difficult to love.  Who am I kidding, for some people, it feels impossible to love them.  We’ve thought about making t-shirts, so let us know if you want one!  Only kidding, kind of.  However, each of us do have different types of people that are easier to love.  But the bottom line is this, if we have accepted Christ as our Savior and the Holy Spirit dwells in us, then we are dead.

We have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ in me.

In that case, what does love look like?  If we fall into the trap of comparison of other brothers and sisters in Christ, then it is easy to find at least one person that we love better than.  But are our brothers and sisters the plumb line?  Are our brothers and sisters our comparative mark in our earthly families? No.  Our parents don’t, or shouldn’t, determine our success based upon the success of a sibling.  Each stands alone.  Our plumb line is Christ and Christ alone.  We as believers and followers of Christ are called to be truly that, followers of Christ.  Image bearers.  A reflection, ikon.  The old cliché is that we are the “hands and feet of Christ”.

Now you are the body of Christ and individually members of it, according to 1 Corinthians 12:27.

Our love is based solely on how Christ loved.

And how did Christ love?  Or how does the Father love?  We have a popular worship song right now that speaks of the overwhelming and reckless love of God.

These lyrics are not in order, but you will get the point:

Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God
Oh, it chases me down, fights ’til I’m found, leaves the ninety-nine

When I was Your foe, still Your love fought for me

You have been so, so good to me
When I felt no worth, You paid it all for me
You have been so, so kind to me

There’s no shadow You won’t light up
Mountain You won’t climb up
Coming after me

There’s no wall You won’t kick down
Lie You won’t tear down
Coming after me

These words are powerful.  God’s Word is powerful of speaking of God’s consuming, everlasting love.  But the conclusion is a tough one to draw.  If this is how Christ loves, if this is how the Father loves and we are to be a reflection of this Christ that we follow, does this mean that this is how I am to love?  Am I to love recklessly?  Is my love never-ending?  Am I to chase people down to love them?  Am I to fight to find people to love?  Do I leave the comfortable 99 to look for the one person who needs love?  What about my foes?  Paul writes that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.  That means while I was an enemy of God, Christ died on my behalf.  That means I hated Him and he sacrificially gave his life to save me, because of love.  And not just an easy, “Okay, I know they hate me so I can still take a gift to the party and be kind.”  No – He fought for the chance to love, even while I hated Him.

What about when my worth was gone and I felt no value in life.  He gave ALL He had for me.  He gave value for me.  Goodness and kindness.  Goodness and kindness.  But now let’s even go a step further – lighting up shadows?  Climbing up mountains for this same opportunity.  To love.  Kicking down walls and tearing down lies.  For the chance to love.  All to come after me.  All to go after them.

What do we find in the shadows?  Shadows are dark.  Shadows can be scary.  Shadows can have things lurking, waiting to pounce. Shadows are uncomfortable.  When an object blocks the light, it makes a shadow.

Climbing up mountains?  Climbing produces sweat.  It is physically exerting, and we can even pass out if not properly nourished.  We will need food and water in order to climb with any efficiency.

Kicking down a wall – what does that take? Well, I’ve been told proper technique is needed to efficiently kick down a wall.  And I would also think it would matter the kind of wall, how big the wall is and how long the wall had been there.  The stronger the hold of the wall, the more difficult to kick down. And we might even get hurt trying and we might even fail.

Tearing down lies.  Wow.  In order to tear down any lies, the truth must be known.  How do we properly identify a lie unless we first know the truth.  And how do we know the truth unless we are hiding it in our heart?  Filling our minds with the very Truth, the Word of God, that defines us and makes us walk in light.

What does this mean?  If I am only to compare my love of people to Christ’s love of people, how do I measure up?  Does my love of others even compare?  Would it even be safe to say that I love at all?  Or do I say that I might even hate?  Or what about no feeling at all?  Am I numb to people?  Am I indifferent to other’s situations and difficulties?  Do I love those like me with my same thoughts and ideas and talents?  Am I too busy to love?

Christ was busy, wouldn’t you say?  His entire 33 years, mind you that is only 1/3 of the life that the average human will live, was devoted to saving ALL of mankind.  And yet, He made time for people.  He made time for meals.  He made time to be present.  He made time and created opportunities to love.  Do we?  It was not obligatory for Christ to sit and eat with Zacchaeus.  He wanted to.  He changed His plans and made the opportunity.  Everywhere He went, everything He did, had purpose and intentionality.  No matter where it was.

Do we love reckless?  Or do we love with safeguards in place?  Did Christ get hurt loving us – oh yeah! We killed Him.  But was it worth it – absolutely.  And if needed, He would do it all over again.

What shadows are we shining lights in to love others?

What mountains are we climbing in order to love someone?

Who are we chasing down in order to love them?

Who are we fighting to find in order to love?

What 99 are we leaving in order to find the one that needs love?

What walls are we kicking down in order to love?

What lies are we tearing down in order to love and be love and speak love and share love?

Who needs to be loved by me?  Who needs to be loved by you?  Who needs to be loved and shown the reflection of Christ, even as my foe?  Even as my enemy?

No weapon formed against us shall prosper and God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.  How far are we willing to go – to love?

A life well lived.

It is not often that you come across a person whose faith is truly anchored.  A person who speaks in confidence of the things she knows to be true and creates a faith within you that you never knew you had.  A person whose very life is defined by the pictures that hang along strings in the hall of her small home as she touches them multiple times per day – praying over them, speaking truth in the spiritual realm into existence, covering them.  A person who, when she prays, the very depths of Hell feel the power.  A person who does not fear earth or death, but embraces both in the power of her Savior because He is big enough.  A person whose faith can carry a group of people into the authority and power that we never dreamed real.  And married to a man of even greater faith.

I’ve met this woman.  I’ve met this couple.  Their momentary vapor has left an indelible mark on my soul, my faith, my home, my family and the generations of faith to come bearing the Haley last name.

These two will be embarrassed of the spotlight.  Not out of fake humility, but out of the shear fact that they know that only Christ separates them.  Only the power of Jesus defines the goodness in them.  Only much time spent with face turned upward separates them from all the other churchgoers.  Only a faith tested creates a faith that can help others in their testing.

One of my first encounters with this power house intercessor was at a women’s prayer retreat when she prayed over my womb – my barren and infertile womb.  When one of the first times I spoke aloud the brokenness that my heart felt and the emptiness my body felt, her faith carried me through.  Her faith strengthened my soul.  Her faith prayed for the miracle that I later received in a precious baby girl named Georgia Ruth.  Her faith, when mine was weak, was enough.

Another amazing encounter is when she prayed from the top of my head to the tips of my toes before my 2nd trip to Southeast Asia.  She covered me.  And from that moment, she vowed to cover me time and time again.

Today, my prayer is that this incredible saint knows her legacy.  May she know the fruit that she bears.  May she always be reminded of the goodness of God and the power her faith has had on my life.  img_2195img_7289img_5177img_0144

Twenty years ago today.

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Twenty years ago today, I began to truly live.  Twenty years ago today, YOU spoke life into a dark place – a soul that ran from You and fought against You.  A soul that desired peace, but only found chaos.  A soul young in physical age, but You knew from before You knit me together.

You are The Sovereign Saviour.

You are my defining course.

You are my first love.

You define me.  And make me whole without any want in this life.  Complete.

Lord, I thank You for Your unending love, grace and power in my life.  I remember the moment like it was yesterday – Wednesday night youth group meeting in the big room with the 2 doors.  I sat on a big, over sized cushion in the floor.  One of my very dear friends, whom I had always thought knew you, confessed that she had found YOU that night for the first time.  And then another did as well.  Two girls, both preacher’s kids, now accepting You for the first time – how can this be, I thought?  But yes – they declared peace.

As the night and the service wore on, I remember the very same call to my soul.  The man in the front of the room had a passion and love for You that it was evident and contagious.  This love grasped me.  As he shared his heart, which is Your heart, that none should perish and all should come to knowledge of Jesus Christ.  I was gripped.  I was focused.  I was consumed.  He spoke of getting your salvation in order.  He spoke of Your great love, mercy and how only YOU made a way in the wilderness.

He spoke of the great, all consuming peace that only YOUR Spirit can bring.

He spoke of joy, endless joy!  And hope!

He spoke of receiving Your free gift of salvation.  And I heard.  I heard YOU calling my name.  Reaching out to me to the uttermost parts of who I am.  I heard YOU and responded.

With my very best friend, my second mother and my youth pastor, I received His free gift of salvation.  And in that moment, I was made whole for the very first time.

April 15, 1998.

But then what?  Is that where the story ends?  At salvation?  No, it is where it begins.

His powerful Holy Spirit has drawn me into an intimate love relationship.  A walk, a journey, that is ever changing and ever growing.  He led me through high school and college, on mission trips, in ministry with some amazing middle school & high school girls and now with adult women.  He has led in my career and has orchestrated each and every step.  He has opened each door and illuminated each step, clearly.  And He still does.

His Word is the driving force of my devotion and His Voice with a megaphone.

While the ministry looks different today, the Power, Peace and Authority has not changed.  His Voice is clearer than ever.  But so are the battles.

Walking with God is not an easy terrain.  The path goes through mountains, valleys, floods, wilderness and lands with lots of giants.  Walking with God takes trust in One bigger than yourself and hope that He keeps His Promises – that He will never leave you nor forsake you.  Walking with God takes strength that only comes from Him.

May my life be wrapped up by following His Voice.

“Walk in God’s statutes and keep His commands, so as to carry them out.”  Leviticus 26:3

“Be it unto me according to Your Word.” Luke 1:38

“Be fruitful and multiply, fill the earth and subdue it.”  Genesis 1:28

“Now then, if you will indeed obey My Voice and keep My Covenant then you shall be My own possession among all the peoples, for all the earth is Mine, and you shall be to me a Kingdom of Priests and a Holy Nation.”  Exodus 19:5-6

“Go therefore, and make disciples of all nations.  Baptizing them in the Name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit.  Teaching them to observe all that I have commanded and I will be with you.”  Matthew 28: 19-20

May these words never be said of me: “You have not obeyed the Voice of the Lord your God.”  Jeremiah 3:25

Christmas…. stories…

Christmas is special. It is a time full of light, spirit, memories, moments and purpose. Often, we get caught up in the hustle and the bustle and miss the true goodness of this season.

I’m reminded of the lyrics of a Christmas classic, “Silent Night, Holy Night. All is calm, all is bright. Round yon virgin, mother and child. Holy infant so tender and mild. Sleep in Heavenly peace, sleep in Heavenly peace.”

The night was silent. All was truly calm. Sleep was Heavenly and peaceful.

Each year when putting up my Christmas tree, I am reminded of some of my greatest memories. Clif and I got married in December and as a part of our wedding celebration we asked our guests to bring one ornament with them to help decorate our first tree. Each year I pull out ornaments from that beautiful ceremony. Some made by their children. Some still with the note they put with the ornament. Others remind me of other special occasions like when our baby girl was born or when we took a step of faith with an ornament for our baby boy before he was “officially” ours. To all of the ornaments picked up along the way in Romania, Jamaica, Indonesia and of course Israel.

Christmas brings about tradition. And hope. This Christmas, I hope you and your family can remember to slow down the pace and embrace the absolute goodness of all that this season celebrates. Tonight, sleep peaceful. Bask in the gratitude.

The night was silent. All was truly calm. Sleep was Heavenly and peaceful.

The darkness lurks in…

And here it is.  Stronger than ever.  The darkness so strong all around, it is difficult to think clearly, difficult to find thanks, difficult to see life as it truly is and not from this skewed angle of partial truth.  The world looks bleak.  Life seems meaningless.  Trivial.  Desperate.

Thoughts begin wondering down paths that never even made sense before.  People all around confirm the lies that the enemy is so craftily speaking to your mind.  Destruction is imminent if the path is not changed.  Such peace was once had.  Now utter chaos.  No control.

How did this happen?  Why are the fights so often?  The anger so quick?  The jealousy and insecurity so strong?  The fear so massive?  And the anxiety…. why?  How did this happen?  The deep, desperate longing for someone to understand your pain, your struggle, your desire to be loved.

The choices are real.  The struggle is real.  The battle is real.  Your countenance has fallen, why?  Grave sin?  No.

Moses’ time with God produced a face of glow.  But what is the alternative?  The demon possessed man lived among the dead, seeking destruction at every turn.  Is that the alternative?  Death.

How long does it take for one to wander away from the faith that has so defined them?  A day?  A week?  A month?  A year?  How quick is the destruction?  As always, more questions than answers.  But one answer shouts out in the midst of the darkness.

“I AM HERE!  Waiting.  Right where you left me.”

The cry from the One you’ve neglected.  The cry from the Holy Father desiring for your fierce return.  And what was only a few short days, it feels like an eternity.  And you think, how did this happen?  The wandering from The Voice.  The wandering from The Word.  The wandering.  He never leaves and never stops pursuing his children.  And as children we look, knowing the safety and the beautiful protection, and yet we wander.  Not intentionally, but slowly.  And then wake up in the darkness trying to get back to the closeness felt within the Father’s arms.  And then you see, you see how it is so easy to drift.  How easy it is to wander and choose the utter harm to your soul.  To your life.

And then comes the last question.  How do we keep from this?  The only answer is this: the fear of what we will be without Christ and without His Book as the foundation.  That fear strengthens us to open The Book when we don’t feel like it.  That fear drives us when we desire sleep over intimacy.  That fear pushes us into dates with our Heavenly Father.  That is the power of healthy fear of knowing what we are without His Presence and without His Word.

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