2.13.15

Life is completely different.

I have a precious husband that I have now been married to for 8 years!  My sweet baby girl is a big one year old…. really, 15 months old, but who is counting?  My church has a new pastor, who should really be pastoring at some mega, crazy big church in a major big city, but is serving at our church in the middle of nowhere… literally, we call it God’s country… so far away!  The church is growing like crazy!  I had the amazing privilege to serve my God and my church by participating on the pastor search committee.  It was definitely one of the most amazing times of my life… there will be a completely separate post about that journey!  I have seen His amazing Hand at work so mightily.  But now what?

I am exhausted!  So extremely tired!  I can’t focus on what my name is, must less anything else.  The whirlwind has been so great… my now I can’t seem to catch my breath…

I can’t claim to feel exactly how the disciples felt after the resurrection, but I have to wonder if they though to themselves, “Okay, now what?”

I know The Lord is finished with me yet, but I am not sure what is next.  What does He want to do next with me?  With my family?  Maybe seminary?  Maybe a trip back to SE Asia?  Maybe a trip back to SE Asia with my family?  So, Lord, I am asking, “What now?”

My bible study today was about Psalm 46:10- “Cease striving and know that I am God.  And I will make my Name know among the nations.”  Be still.  Beth Moore says, “Don’t default to our past.  Don’t jump the gun to our future.  Just behold and know.  Instructions will come when the time is right.  In the meantime, just be —  even though being is so much harder than doing.”

So I now I am to be still and await instructions.  I hope that I have been faithful with all of my previous assignments and I pray that I am faithful with all of my future.  Use me and my family as YOU see fit.  Thank you, Jesus, for Your sweet word today.